You Know Who I am ?

Some peoples call me April, but some others call me Santy. You can call me whatever you want, but don’t call me Ana, because I hate that name. Every name has the meaning, so has my name. Frankly, I didn’t know what my parents want from me by give me that name and they never told me the meaning of my name ( it’s impossible to ask them about it now). Some years ago, I found what I’m looking for. I found the meaning of my name. Apriliana mean the girl who was born on April and Susanty mean kind and peace ( In Sanskertan’s, Su mean ‘good’ or ‘kind’ and Santy mean ‘peace’). Apriliana Susanty mean the kind girl who was born on April who love peace.

When I was child, some of my friends called me ‘The Ugly Black Duck’ because my skin was blacker than theirs. I know The Ugly Black Duck never become the Swan Princess. Today, I m still black, but I m not ugly. There’s the worthier things than just beauty, that is brain and behavior. I love the way I am. I am beautiful no matter what they say.

I am a girl, but it’s doesn’t mean that I should be girlie : wear pink shirt, high heels, and make up like Barbie. Girl is not always weak. We have brain to think, positive thinking. We have hearth to feel, feel love and hate. We could do what the boys did. We have choices in our life. Who we are in the future is depend on with our decisions today. We could be like Joan The Arch : strong, brave, smart and independent.

Have you ever heard an aphorism: “Book is window of the world”?. When the first time I heard it, I didn’t believe it. How can the combinations of the alphabets made us know everything in the world!. But then, after I was read more than a hundred books in a year, I knew I was wrong. By read books, I can see the world today, past, even future. Nowadays, reading is my first and my biggest hobby. No day without books.

“ Rokin’ your body, rokin’ your mind, Baby!”

“ Break your loneliness and let the music set you free!”.

Music has become my best friends beside books. When I m alone and feel so loneliness, I’ll turning on my radio and let the string of rock guitars break up my mind. When I felt so tire and bore, I’ll let the harmony of the instrument music relaxing my soul. I love music, love it so much.

Life is art. Life can be beautiful, but it can be bad, too. The keys is in ourselves: how we control our brain, our will, and our struggle to reach our dreams. The first and the main step is knowing who we are. We couldn’t be the leader if we can’t be lead ourselves. Socrates said Gnothi Seauton, know yourself. I think it’s very important to know who we are and what we want. That’ll help us to face the real life.

Life is a circle, sometimes on the top and sometimes on the bottom. Yesterday I’m nothing. Today, I m still nothing. But I believe I’ll be a-thing in the future, who knows.

I believe that everyone have dreams in their life. And I believe too, if we try hard (so hard) to realize our dreams, nothing is impossible. It’s not easy to get what I want. I tried so hard to reach my goals before I can smile like today. So many tears has fallen. So many hearts has broken. And finally I’ve got what I want. I know it’s just the start. My war has just begun. The real enemy is from ourselves. That’s why we must know who we are.

Now I have 1001 dreams to be realize. Become the writer is one of my ambitions. I want to write everything what I’ve done. I want to write my life: my tears, my love, my struggle and also my sins. I know I can be what I want to be and I believe it.

Now you now who I am.